Creative Drama

Like for many, my favorite form of procrastination is reading. As much as I imagine myself to be the determined and disciplined artist I have read about, who sits down everyday if not the same time everyday to woo the muse, my reality is quite different.

My process, if I can call it that goes like this...I think (i.e have a vision similar to a day dream) about what I want to create, then how I feel about creating it for the longest time and then how it will look when it is done for about the same time. Then I move on to do image research and procrasti-read some more. I avoid the doing part to the edge of what I can get away with. Then one fine day a dreadful feeling will set in that if I don't draw or paint that day then I wouldn't deserve any inspiration coming to me after that. I will most likely finish the painting which has been sitting for many months on that day in a few hours if I don't let the flow break. I often wonder if this seeming madness can be called a creative rhythm.

I have tried time and again to change this to something logical which I can talk about when I inevitably get asked about my process..being the engineer that I am I so want it to be something which will have science to back it up or simply common sense like practice makes perfect but in vain. When my left brain fails I accept my right brain’s answers which in this case is that my muse is eccentric, well that and I also read somewhere that “the artist creates when the pain of not creating exceeds the pain of creating”. So for now I am taking solace knowing at least one other person out there has the same process as me, I know I didn't put it as eloquently but to whoever out there wondering about their own eccentric process, I am with you. This is my process and it works every single time.